Hey sweetie, I’m sorry you’re having a tough time lately. Have you consider talking to someone about this ? I’m sure you are being followed by a doctor, but have you told him/her that right now things are not working out ? Maybe there is a different combination of medication, or maybe some counseling would help, maybe there are some techniques you haven’t heard of yet. There is always a way to help a little more, even just talking about your frustrations can help a lot in self harm control.
Good luck honey, and I hope everything works out