I feel your pain. There have been many times when I’ve been on top of the world only to be shot down by the slings and arrows of depression. If we can not rid ourselves of this deadly brain disease then we must co-exist with it. I know it sounds unbearable but when you’re thrust downward by uncontrollable forces don’t push against an immovable object, instead allow yourself to be taken downstream on a current of sadness. Protect yourself from harm by confronting it and accepting that the pain will never last forever: even a river must end at sometime.