I’m sorry that you have to feel
like this. I know it’s a horrible feeling but you can get through this! Firstly
I want to tell you that I’m not professional so I am in not place to diagnose
you with anything. I can talk to you about the different types of bipolar and
what the symptoms are but to find out if you do, you must see a professional. I
know that it can be really scary to go and confront someone about how you are
feeling but I’m telling you that it is definitely worth your time!!
With bipolar you have different
Bipolar 1 Disorder
Bipolar 2 Disorder
Bipolar 1 – is the more serve out
of the two. They tend to experience mania (severely high mood often with
delusions and/or hallucinations), psychotic episodes and tend to be more likely
to be hospitalised.
Bipolar 2 – (Bipolar 2 is less
serve then Bipolar 1) doesn’t contain psychotic features. When a person suffers
from the episodes they tend to only last a few hours instead of days. They
experience less serve highs called/referred to as hypomania (translates
straight to ‘less than mania’) and depression.
These are the key features that
you should look out for (both mania and hypomania):
High energy levels
In extreme cases of mania (not
hypomania) there can be added on symptoms of delusions and/or hallucinations.
The symptoms and signs of mania:
Feeling unusually “high” and optimistic OR
Unrealistic, grandiose beliefs about one’s
abilities or powers
Sleeping very little, but feeling extremely
Talking so rapidly that others can’t keep up
Racing thoughts; jumping quickly from one idea
to the next
Highly distractible, unable to concentrate
Impaired judgment and impulsiveness
Acting recklessly without thinking about the consequences
Delusions and hallucinations (in severe cases)
Hypomania is a less serve form of
mania. People in this state feel euphoric (feeling intense excitement or happiness),
energetic, and productive, but they still carry out their day-to-day lives.
They also manage to never lose touch with reality. To others, it may just seem
like those with hypomania are just in an unusually good mood. Hypomania
does/can cause bad decisions that harm relationships, reputations and careers.
Something that often happens though is hypomania can turn into full-blown mania
or can be followed by a major depressive episod
Now from here I think you should
have a look through everything. Take some time to read and understand what
bipolar really is. If you feel like you need to, go and see someone (a
professional) about how you are feeling and they will help you in the best
I really hope this has helped you
understand more about bipolar. I also help that you figure out everything! You’re
an amazing person and you deserve all the happiness in the world!
Remember, the climb is hard but
the view is great!!